The Beauty of Change: An Update

Hello everyone! I hope you are doing well.

It’s been a while since I have posted here. I realize I just sort of dropped off with no explanation and for that I apologize.

grumpycatThere are several reasons for my absence. The first is that I have been having some technical difficulties. My computer is old and started crashing every time I tried to run WordPress. And it can’t handle video editing anymore at all, hence no new YouTube videos.

At first I was pretty upset by this, but before long I didn’t have much time to think about it anymore because of another reason…..

My family has been very sick this winter. Seems like we are down with something new every other week. I don’t like being sick. And I especially don’t like seeing my children sick.

Which brings me to yet another reason for my absence……

It’s something that I’ve never talked about on this blog before.

My youngest child has a genetic syndrome called Prader-Willi Syndrome.

NewbornJo

2 days old

When she was born 2 years ago, our lives were turned upside down. Her first month of life was spent in the NICU, which was like being in an alternate universe. Everyday was centered around tests, procedures & the like. When we finally got to bring her home, her health was still very delicate and taking care of her consumed much of my time and energy. Having a special-needs child can be exhausting. I don’t think anyone ever plans to be a special-needs parent. I certainly hadn’t. And it was something I had a hard time accepting at first.

Then, over time, she began to improve. Things started to become easier. And I had the time to return to makeup & all things beauty related. And part of that was this blog. It gave me an outlet. Working with makeup was a part of my life that had begun before she was born, and I realize now that I was desperately trying to hang on to something that felt “normal,” a part of my life that didn’t have to be defined by being a “special-needs parent.”

But the health challenges we have faced this winter have opened my eyes to the realization that things in my life can change very quickly.

Change can be a scary thing. It takes us out of our comfort zone and makes us adapt. But change can also be a beautiful thing. It makes us grow and mature into better people.Change-Ahead-Sign

My sweet baby girl keeps me on my toes, that is for sure. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. Having her has made me have to change. And because of that, I am a better person.

So for now I am going to let go of trying to hold on to who I was before, which includes letting go of this blog. It’s time to embrace who I am now. “Special-needs” and all. Maybe I will return to the blogosphere one day. Maybe not. We’ll see what the future holds.

Family

November 2012

Thankfully, my family is on the mend and all of our health is improving steadily.

I am so grateful for all of you who have come by to visit and hear what I have to say. Thank you for your love and support through this journey. You have helped me more than I can say.

So I leave you with this: Don’t resist change, embrace it. God has big plans for you!

CSLewis quote

Thanks for stopping by! Have a great day!

Beauty From Pain

You might want to grab your scuba gear, because today we are going to go a little deep….

photo courtesy of Jeremiah Strom Beck

Life is hard sometimes.

This is a fact that I have learned, interestingly enough, the hard way.

Each of us will face hard times in our life. There will be times of hurt and pain when we don’t know how….

or even if….

we can ever.

go.

on.

When the thought of taking the next breath seems almost too much.

But the painful times of our life have a purpose. It is in those times that we have the opportunity to grow as a person. It is in those times that we become more of the person we were created to be. Many times we don’t have clear answers as to why we go through things. But the one way we can guarantee that the pain was not in vain is when we take a step back and look at how we can learn and move forward through it. It’s tough, but we have to keep going, keep trying, and keep moving forward.

I don’t know what you are going through in your life right now, but know that there is a good purpose for it. Even when it doesn’t make sense. Every day is a new day and a new opportunity to turn things around. When we grow through these times, we develop a beauty that comes from within. A beauty that doesn’t fade with age or wrinkles or spots. A beauty that doesn’t need makeup or skin care. A beauty that becomes a part of who we are.  Pain can make us bitter or make us beautiful.  It’s our choice.

All This Time – Britt Nicole